I know. I haven’t been filling you guys in with what’s happening and I appreciate that there’s still souls who are bothered with this space (better not be the 7th month crowd). I’ve ended my attachment with the armed forces just a week ago, with an emotional baggage. I’ve met new people; still love the older ones though!

It was a cultural exchange with Gobind around. Our daily sharing of the racial discrimination he faced made me feel like an ass; the Chinese thought they understand but they (ironically, it should have been ‘we’) never once did. Not when we are the majority.

Perry’s own acumen of life helped me grow better as a person. Speaking to him on his next embarkation to school I was made to remember those days. I was burning with passion then to perform in university; the journey however meandered into a failing trend. Perry’s self-reliance dispels some of the strongest beliefs I once had, and consequently left me hanging in shame. The takeaways were never meant to be self defeating though.

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Got burnt thrice in three months: once taking shots while Weiliang’s playing Ultimate Frisbee; once in Sentosa playing volleyball; and the most recent in Pulau Ubin. Once burnt thrice shy didn’t happen. The idea of applying sunblock lotion didn’t sink deep enough.

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A year ago, I fulminate against the dreaded idea of bidding for modules in NUS. From a student viewpoint, it’s flexibility with a grave price. The bidding exercise returned this year with a bang, this time with maximum impact. I failed to secure the modules I loved, ended up with what I felt — a second grade subject.

In a way, I resent against God’s decision of making things exclusively difficult for me, especially one would dream for his university times in his apex. Yet, everyone’s dream – my reality – seemed to debase into the nadir of my life. That explains why I never believed in those “being resilient in times of adversity” spins we connote Racial Harmony Day.

If it’s gonna happen, it probably will. Like Shaun perfectly written, Judas may be the best thing that happen to Jesus.